“The best non-boyfriends in the world”

Father He stars in his documentary about heartbreak, hypochondria and depression and does so in the first person. There are artists who sing, artists that make up and artists who become living stories. Aitana Ocaña is undoubtedly the last. His is not just to fill stadiums or take lists of successes; His is to narrate life with the honesty of those who are not afraid to expose. And although for years he built a wall between his intimacy and the public eye, his new documentary in Netflix, metamorphosis, dynamite without regard.

The viewer enters his universe with a direct, almost impudent invitation. There are no subterfuges or phrases rehearsed. What counts his relationship with Sebastián Yatra, his mental health and the free fall in which he sometimes becomes success is a reality slap. Those who expected only a musical Making-of will find an intimate portrait where Aitana is shown with the crudeness of those who have learned that the human sells more than the perfect. From the beginning, the documentary makes clear what we all sensed: the relationship between Aitana and Yatra was never idyllic, but an intermittent love story between flights, scenarios and team meetings. A romance at clandestine times, at times evident, always accompanied by cameras and rumors.

“Our life is very intense. It is difficult to have a relationship of two,” Aitana confesses while Yatra nods by her side. They were never only two; There was always a team, a tour, a recording. Intimacy was a scarce luxury and love had to adapt to the agenda. In a moment of premonitory lucidity, Aitana launches a phrase that leaves in the air the inevitable end: “most likely, when we finish this documentary, we are no longer together.” And so it was. The second break came while they still rolled metamorphosis. The confirmation that his own, although intense, was not made to resist the passage of time. But far from drama or resentment, they have maturity, as who accepts the inevitable. “We are the best non -boyfriends in the world,” Yatra says in an attempt to define the indefinable.

But if the documentary is a trip, the final destination is loneliness. Aitana admits without tapujos that he has never managed to be alone. Since 17 he has chained relationships, without pauses or dead times. “This summer was a cure for my heart. I had never been single and I decided to do what I wanted. Now I have to disapprove,” he confesses. The heartbreak, however, does not remain alone in words. It becomes music. Aitana transforms her duel into songs and drops a bomb for her followers: her fourth album will be a direct testimony of her break with Yatra. As proof, it premieres in first February 6, an issue born of pain and anger, of those nights in which love becomes a mirage and the heart breaks without remedy.

Hypochondria as a constant shadow

But metamorphosis is not just a story of love and heartbreak. It is also a mirror in which Aitana shows her deepest fears, those who have always been with her. Mental health, so elusive in the entertainment world, appears here with name and surname. For the first time, the artist speaks openly about her hypochondria. It is not a whim or an exaggeration, but a paralyzing fear that accompanies it from childhood. “Since I have reason, I have always thought that something bad had and that I was going to die young,” he confesses. For six years he has avoided blood analysis for panic to receive bad news. Each symptom is a death sentence in your mind. Each headache, a fatal omen. The anxiety of living with a constant fear of the disease has marked it more than fame or success could do so.

And when the documentary has already revealed a lot, the final blow comes. Aitana records herself at a time of absolute vulnerability and names what she is living: depression. “I don’t know what happens to me, but I’m not fine,” he says with his eyes to cry. What should be your best professional moment becomes a spiral of apathy and sadness. “It is hard for me to train, read, watch a movie, go to work. I’m afraid that I don’t excite me what I do,” he confesses. The viewer attends a moment of emotional nudity that is rarely seen in the music industry. There are no filters or makeup here. There are no poses or motivational phrases. Only a 25 -year -old girl admitting that sometimes success is a very lonely place.

Metamorphosis leaves a strange sensation, between admiration and restlessness. Aitana’s courage is admirable when exposing her fears and fragility, but the high price she has paid is also worrying about being who she is. Fame has made her an icon, but also a woman who fears being alone, who suffers from her health and who wonders if one day she will feel like before. And that, in a world where the image is everything, is the greatest revelations.

What Aitana account leaves us amazed, yes. But, above all, he leaves us thinking. Because behind each artist there is a person, and behind each success, a story that deserves to be told. And his, finally, has been told with all its lights and shadows.