Selena Gomez thought about suicide: “I thought the world would be better if I wasn’t in it”

Selena Gomez (30) stars in the new cover of Rolling Stone. In her interview, the actress, who was diagnosed with bipolarity in 2018, explained that she went through up to four therapy centers since she was 20 years old and that, although she never tried to end her life, she contemplated suicide .

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“I think that when I reached 20, I began to feel that I did not have control of what I felt (…) I thought that the world would be better if I was not in it,” the music star has revealed.

the singer of Calm Down He has also talked about another complicated episode, about the pain he suffered after trying to disassociate his image from Disney, where he became popular in youth series.

On the other hand, the former Justin Bieber She has confessed that she was distressed by the idea of ​​being single: “I grew up thinking that I would be married at 25. It destroyed me to see that I was not even close to that. In fact, it could not be further.”

Gómez, who this summer was related to the film producer Andrea Iervolino, has also lamented that the fact of not belonging to any “impeccable group of famous girls” has harmed his mental health. Her “only friend in the industry” was, and is, the singer-songwriter Taylor Swift. “I thought: Do all these material things make me happy? I really didn’t like who I was because I didn’t even know who I was myself.”

As a result of this problem, he became dependent on various drugs and medications: “I had to detox and had to learn to remember certain words because I even forgot where I was. It took me a lot of work to accept that I was bipolar and learn to deal with it because that It wasn’t going to go away.”

The artist premieres this Friday on Apple TV + Selena Gomez: My Mind & Mea documentary in which his mental health problems are analyzed, aggravated by the weight of the spotlights and his dazzling success on social networks.